a list like this one.

it's been a while. how are you doing? here's a product of my recently resurrected poetic ambitions. i'm thinking of calling it simply a list, though it sounds somewhat dull. any suggestions?

it is a fact that i love
green leaves
red nail polish
golden chandeliers
and the sea,
whichever colour currently available.
i am the mishappen
wunderkind of middle class
my mind is good at remembering
grocery lists and
second hand poems.
i hate jazz. i like to pretend i understand it.
i drink three to four cups of coffee every day.
i know it will kill me.
i am good at everything,
the best at nothing.
i draw, i sing, i read,
a well-bred lady of the century.

it's just that i sometimes forget
to be myself
some unknown words come flodding from my mouth,
and i have to stop and make a list
of all the things i am,
a list like this one.

early winter renaissance

i can't believe i am actually saying this, but this year i am sort of enjoying the chill of the coming winter and the low set sun. i've always been a summer person. i love the colours of the sea, the wide cloudless sky and the heat. but when the first snow fell this weekend, i was happy as a child. i also have a brand new coat, and the descending temperatures gave me a chance to take full advantage of it already. there's something about the foggy mornings and the northern wind that makes me want to snuggle up with a book and a cup of tea. speaking of books, i recently finished hesse's narcissus and goldmund, and it gave me some things to think about. also, (and i'm sort of ashamed to admit it) i read twilight this week. yes, i did. i can't really say it gave me anything to think about, except for some quirky teenage fantasies i believe every girl experiences at least once in her lifetime. right now, i'm starting with kerouac's on the road again.

also, i've decided to start drawing again. it's sort of liberating.
aaand i'm writing quite a lot of poetry after a few years of absolutely nothing. aaand my band is finally starting to be productive.

yay, i'm experiencing an artistic renaissance! i hope something good will actually come out of me before it ends.